Wednesday, May 06, 2009

My Roller Coaster Ride...life isn't always what you plan

So when you think of going to Elitches, riding the roller coaster sounds fun, and something that you would like to do a couple times. Well, I have had the craziest Roller Coaster of my life! I had so many ideas of how things in my life would unfold, and let's just say, I am in the Lord's hands, not in my own hands....

I went in on April 18th to have a baby, and had a c-section after 1 1/2 hours of pushing. Evan and I got a beautiful baby girl, Lucy, 9lbs 3 oz. Not sure what she weighs now, but her two week appt is this week, she is almost 3 weeks old now:)

After I was discharged and we brought baby Lucy home Wednesday, I got really sick and was readmitted to the hospital Friday, just two days after she was brought home. Evan and I then spent until Tuesday the following week in the hospital and were told that I had an infection in my uterus, and that my liver was enlarged, and other metabolic things were a off. I was glad to go home Tuesday.

Wednesday I was SUPER sick again but was soooo emotional and sad, I didn't want to go back to the hospital, and tried to hold out one more day. So yes, Thursday I had gotten worse, and returned to the hospital, only this time it took the ER from 5pm to 3am to admitt me...it was a LONG night. I had more tests run on me than I took all through my entire life of testing in school!

Cat Scans, leg ultrasounds, liver ultrasounds, blood work, chest x-rays, heart thinga ma jiggers, etc! I can't even name or count all the tests I went through. The phlobotomist was scared of me and my veins and said I was the hardest person to draw blood from, and he saw cases like me once a year...YIKES!

So, after lots of prayer on our part and many of your prayers, the doctors finally found that I had an infection behind my uterus(like an abscess) and needed to treat it. And since I had a doctor from almost every department working on me, they all had a plan for how I should be worked on. It came down to having a very potent antibiotic try to reach the infection, instead of doing surgery, and a liver biopsy. (my liver is 3-4 times the size it should be)

So After spending 6 more days in the hospital, I came home this past Tuesday with a picc line in my arm, and a nurse comes over everyday in the afternoon to administer the antibiotic to me so that I can be home, and not in the hospital. This will continue until Monday of next week.

I love being home. It has been really hard to be away from my baby and my mother. I am VERY grateful to Evan for sticking by my side and staying in the hospital with me on their ever so comfy beds, and making sure that I was taken care of properly. I am soooo grateful to my mother for extending her plane ticket over and over to accomodate this special circumstance. I am grateful to the Lord for helping me through this ordeal. I know that the Lord has a plan for me, and I am definitely learning from my experiences. I can't believe that it is May already...time really disappeared from me.

In 6 weeks I will go back and have my liver retested, and for the rest of my life i will have to deal with the metabolic disorder that I have.... My body isn't perfect, but Heavenly Father is definitely blessing me through my challenges.

And to answer any questions, Yes, I will have more children if the Lord will bless me with them. I know I had a really hard time getting pregnant, and then all of this complication that happened. But this is a rare thing, and it will soon be a sign of the past. I might even be able to breast feed the next baby...we shall see.

I love my new family. I love seeing Evan with Lucy. My mom is the perfect definition of what a mother should be. I hope I can come close to being like her one day.

I am grateful for prayer and priesthood blessings. I am grateful to all of you for comfort and support and your prayers. I am happy that I am feeling so much better, but still have a long road in front of me for recovery!

Life is a roller coaster, and you don't always know what turns and changes in the coarse will happen. But, we should all stay fastened and know that the Lord will not allow us to end the ride on a bad note. He wants us to come home safely to Him!

Yay to better days and feeling better!

Love to you all!
Hilary

17 comments:

Itty_Bitty_Wittes said...

Man oh man! I am so glad you wrote it all out. I hope you are feeling better. I hope that you have a quick recovery and when the time comes to have another baby it goes without a hitch. I wish I could see you and give you some fun time, but when you are up for it. There is nothing wrong with formula I promise! I will continue to keep you in my prayers and I hope for a quick recovery.

Seth Jenson said...

We've been worried about you and wondering how you were doing. Glad they were able to figure out the problem and get you treated. Good luck in a full recovery and in learning how to treat the metabolic disorder. God bless.

Shenna said...

I can't believe everything you have gone through! I am amazed that you have been so positive throughout this whole ordeal - it takes a special person to look at things the way you do! You're in our prayers and hopefully you can recover quickly!!!

Ann Marie said...

I am so sorry that you have had to go through this. I'm glad that you have explained what has happened. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family and I hope you have a very quick recovery. Keep being strong and I can't wait to see Lucy! Just know that you are being thought of and prayed for...everyday. Love you!

KESLER KREW...Cami said...

glad you are feeling better hilary. we have been thinking about you and hoping you can get some extra rest & peace that you need right now! let me know if we can help in any way *cami

Cardon Times said...

I am so glad you are home and on the road to recovery! And thank you for sharing with everyone. You really make us all stronger with your testimony.

Ryan and Chrystal said...

Wow Hillary that is more than a roller coaster ride. I'm so glad that you are doing better and able to be at home. Thanks for sharing your story. We'll keep you in our prayers.

Honey said...

Hilary, you are amazing! So glad you are home now with baby Lucy and getting the care you need. I'm 2 secs away, so anything you need, give me a holler!

Nolo and Lauren said...

Love you Hilary.... So glad you're home and that the "problem" has been identified. You're still in my prayers.

Carolyn Biddulph said...

Sounds more like a trip to Mars and back! Hopefully things will be easier now. Thanks for sharing all your news. I never would have recognized you in the picture without the curly hair. Happy Mother's Day this week!

kerri ann said...

I'm glad you made it out ok and are recovering well. Lucy is beautiful!

Melanie said...

So glad you are home. We sure love you. Please let us know what you need. You're the best.

Hilary said...

Thank you everyone!

Amanda said...

Hilary - My heart just breaks for you and everything you went through. I can't even imagine. Know we love you and are still praying for you.

Marie said...

Congrats on the baby!!! Sorry to hear about your setback... as if having a brand new baby isn't enough of a challenge! You are one strong girl, Hilary!
Lucy is beautiful, by the way!

Jami said...

You don't know me... I've read your blog a few times via Valerie. I just want you to know I'm praying for you, too. I'm glad you have such a great attitude about all this! You're an example to me! :)

Rachael Westoer said...

Hilary-

I'm sorry to hear of all the medical ordeals you've been dealing with since you delivered Lucy! I'm sure it feels good to have most of this behind you and to be home again with the family together. Congratulations again on such an adorable little girl!Thinking of you,
Rachael